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Leaving for the first time. [Jun. 7th, 2005|08:07 pm]
Never trust an expat.


[music |Tom Waits - Lost In The Harbour]

Sometimes I wonder if I'm making the right decision. Then I realize it's too late; I've already passed up a wonderful opportunity to study at Ateneo, I've already accepted the offer of a college education abroad, and because of that, for the first time in my life, I'm going to spend 9 months every year half a world away from my family, friends, and basically everything I've ever known to study in Ohio, where it's cold, flat, and different. Very different.

Some days I feel excited, glad that I'm finally leaving, glad that I'll finally get to explore new lands. And some days I wonder what my life would've been like if I'd chosen to stay. I assume this is natural, and that this is the stage that precedes the total panic that will seize me once I've got one foot on that plane, sure that the following step will be the last one I will make on my native soil.

I'm still trying to grasp the colossal changes my moving will result in. Right now, I'm still overwhelmed by the mere fact.

[User Picture]From: wring
2005-06-07 01:50 pm (UTC)

welcome to the comm!

university of michigan?

yeah, the mere thought of not being able to see your family for months and months can be pretty daunting. for me, it's not having a specific date to "go home". it's the unknown that's scary.
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[User Picture]From: m_nystagmus
2005-06-08 02:41 am (UTC)
Oberlin College, actually. Leaving in two weeks...
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[User Picture]From: david_s_wright
2005-08-04 03:08 am (UTC)

Very impressive!

Oberlin? Mazeltov! Ateneo is of course a great school too, but all those I've known who went through Oberlin came out with a great education and lifelong friends.

Yes, it is @!#!%@% cold, and it's not one of the beauty spots of the world, but the intellectual exchange between students, and between students and professors, seems really outstanding. I hope it helps you get through the culture shock, not to mention the long term culture stress, of being so far from home. It can take awhile to get the sort of deep friendships that really do the trick. Well, as Nieztsche said, "Whatever doesn't kill me makes me stronger." :~)

Good luck!
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[User Picture]From: m_nystagmus
2005-11-21 10:51 pm (UTC)

Re: Very impressive!

Thanks for the comments; I've been here a while and I find that Oberlin does facilitate a lot of intellectual exchanges. Being away from home has taken its toll (mostly because the food here is not as flavourful as I've been used to), but there's a strong community of Filipino Americans here, and it does help.

If the winter doesn't kill me, though, nothing will.
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